what to do

Over the last week or so, I’ve been wondering what my next step should be. And as you may have noticed, I’ve written posts more frequently than I have in quite some time. The idea is to keep myself preoccupied. This doesn’t mean I have too much time on my hands, but it certainly is a fact that I try now to take out time of my overly busy schedule.

I personally believe that each person should have no reason to stay at work for more than 10 hours in a day, including travel time. After that, it should be just you and the people that you care for, or just be along with yourself. Unfortunately, this would apply in an ideal state, and not generally applicable to the masses. My official work hours are between 8.30am and 5.30pm. Rarely have I ever left the office on time, unless I have a definitive commitment to meet. Otherwise, I’d usually end up getting back home just in time for dinner, at almost 9pm.

On most counts, this kind of a busy day has driven my patience near the edge. Most often than not, I get extremely worn out, thus leading to fatigue and disconnection between me and my work. At times I just feel that I should be doing my own thing, and just stop what I am doing right now. But how to start off with that is a question that always creeps up. Of course, it requires deliberate planning and implementation of a well thought out strategy.

For the last couple of years, I’ve been keen on setting up my own consulting/advisory service. The services, which I’ve carefully thought out, would include:

  • Financial – accounting, taxation planning and associated services
  • Marketing – biz dev, sales, customer services and relationship building services
  • Human Resources – all associated services
  • Technology – all associated services
  • Management – mostly to do with proper business planning and management

It is an understandable fact that not all can be done together, nor am I a champion in all these. But what I intend to do is gather the best possible minds to work together and form a partnership, thus equally managing each area with specialised interest and dedication, and in the end, profiting from our combined efforts. I’m currently in the process of putting together a strategy around the above, and also seeking out potential long-term partners to put this dream to motion.

I shared my vision with her too, and she loved it. I told her I hoped that we could do this together, so that we could be partners in every way possible. She said she couldn’t think of anything better. She’s no more with me… I am at a loss for words. I wanted this dream to come true, I tried so hard, yet seemed to fail. This gives me the feeling that my dreams are either not meant to come true, or I’ll have to force the hurdles out of the way. These road blocks are killing me inside… soon I might realise I am no longer capable of doing anything right (I feel this coming already). If it takes over, I dread the outcome…


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